May222013
The church that i was involved in where I grew up has a wonderful ministry that its associated with that deals with healing and deliverance, I know that it is a very touchy topic even in christian circles but it is something that i know works and I have heard many testimonies. any way about 3 years ago there were some words of knowledge spoken over my life that i have treasured and taken in. one of the comments from one of those people was that they felt that I would benefit from some more ministry and to make an appointment. That involved making phone calls and i hated doing that (still do but im better at it) so i put it off and put it off. any way I feel like im at a point in my life where I dont know which direction to do and there is a lot of things that i have been struggling with for many years (like 5-7+) that I cant seem to shake. I have bit the bullet and written them an email which i hope they reply too. I am not that keen on going particularly cause I am nervous of who is going to be there. there are a fair few people that are involved with this ministry that I highly respect and i dont really want them to know my inner thoughts and the major things that i have struggled with cause they are things that I am definitely not proud of and some of them are things that I have never told anyone. I dont think i will regret going but I know at the time im going to be an absolute bag of nerves eek :/
7AM
thinking of applying to an agency for some work interstate until I get all of my stuff ready for the uk (if I go) otherwise just to do it until i have a perminant job, but im not sure I think i should wait a little bit at least till the end of my holidays to see where I stand cause thats when my boss comes back and I will have had a bit of a break so I might not feel so set on moving. its really hard cause i dont want to be hear and yet i dont feel like i belong anywhere cause I dont feel like this is home yet Toowoomba isnt home, I dont know everything is up in the air grr
6AM
That im happy being single! duh duh dahhhhh! lol surprise, it has taken me a long time to come to that conclusion. it doesnt mean that there are not days where I wish that it wasnt the case and that there are not days that I struggle with the idea/ thought/ concept etc but I believe generally that I am happy being single i am happy working as a nurse and enjoying the life I have. I went to the show ball on the weekend with a couple of friends (ok it was like 1 friend from work who ended up bailing on me half way through the night to go skype her boyfriend) but any way it was an event that generally is something that is very couples orientated, and I would be lying to say that it was hard to see all of the couples there particularly when they all started dancing and doing cool moves and I was stuck to (attempt :p) to groove all by my self. but i made the effort I made myself a) not look at them and b) dance and have a good time, all in all it was quite a good night hanging out with a couple of people from work. my highlight was actually getting dressed up and not once feeling fat and frumpy, I felt quite pretty (which is like a first for a long time). I like the fact that I feel happy with out a man. it is even to the point where there is a few things that I want to do before I even think about settling down. I spose the more I think about not having a BF I will want a BF but i know that there are many exciting things instore for me and that when the time is right he will come and sweep me off my feet :) (even if it is in 5 yrs time)
6AM
Please when I marry can I please marry someone who can sing really well pretty please so that we can sing along together while he plays piano and or guitar please
May202013
Had an interesting conversation with two of my housemates tonight, it’s not what I thought we would be talking about but not unwelcome I might write more about it tomorrow but it has opened my eyes to a few different things and points of view, it is amazing that when you are doubting your need to be somewhere and the impact that you are having God pulls you aside and shows you that all of the hard work and tears isn’t for nothing
May132013
Puking my guts out 7 times in a row is not what I call fun particularly when I have had very little sleep since finishing night duty and have to go back again tonight at least I feel a little bit better and hopefully I can still work tonight
12PM
ohioisonfiire:
Update from Australia: A school boy has been suspended for 15 days due to throwing a vegemite sandwich at prime minister Julia Gillard.
As much as I believe that you should respect people of authority even if you dont like them, this is actually pretty funny
(via hisgracekeepsmeafloat)
5AM
I got my passport photos done today they look as horrible as passport photos do but they will work.
